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so i am leaving for school in about 5 and 1/2 hours crayz huh?

i am really sad but really happy i hate it when that happens

i need to finish packing


........Bye old life

so i had a really awesome night i hung out w/ my buddy alex. we really didn't so much but he is such a cool kid that we had a blast anyway. wow i had a really good time i am gunna miss him so much when i huged him goodbye i almost cryed i hate that i am leaving all of my friends when i decied i was going to school in NC i was really happy that is was really far but now i am sad about it at the same time. i am gunna miss my friends so much. i am jsut going rally far from cool people.


TOMORROW = PHISH
i can't wait thati is gunna rock. yeah partying on that lawn WOOT

yeah so

i really need to be back at camp. being at home is way harder then i thougth it was gunna be. today i called camp and i was like crying. it is really really hard knowing that they are all there and i'm not. anyway i have been trying to have fun before i leave again. to quote marc i feel like i'm just waiting and i am. i am waiting to leave and start over again. so anyway i come home from 5ish weeks away from home and my best friend since 1st grade has moved to reading we have lived nextstore to each other since 1st grade and no she doesn't live there anymore. reading.....fuck.....thats like an hour away. what the fuck. i miss her so much. everything reminds me of camp and marc and emily and suzanne this is no good. i was looking in my phone today and i was about to call gwen to see if she wanted to chill and i was like hey dumb ass she is at camp yeah that place you really miss and want to be at right now. that was no good. so i was writing an e-mail and i zoned out and i found my self looking at my pictures from camp. i have no memorie of opening them or anything it is sad how badly i miss that place. i even miss being dirty gross huh my feet are clean what?? anyway i have been chillen w/ some friends here passing time. i saw the village i was dissapointed. that movie could have been really good but it wasn't on the other hand i did see the butterfly effect. that was really good. really good. i love movies that fuck with your head. wow i miss camp. anyway i meed to stop typing that over and over agian.

yeah so being home is crazy

it is really hard but i know i needed to be home

i missed all my friends so much but i can't stop thinking about camp

i am leaving for school in about 11 or so days now that is crazy

i miss everyone so much even the campers

it was really nice sleeping at mar's last night it was perfect not camp but not the real world eaither

i wanna go back but i want to stay

i need lots of hugs and tell me you missed me even if you didn't

why is it that drama queens are attracked to me? i hate drama. i really do. i would rahter just sit and chill w/ kids then worry about what they are thinking. people are crazy. i hate those people who have to have somthing crazy going on they can't just chill and relax. i like to just sit and chill. i know some people can't do that. and thats cool. don't lie about it. don't be afraid to be who you are. i'll still like you i might even like you more for being honest then ruining a good time. well it wasn't ruined. ha ha.

yeah so i love my dad. it's father's day and my family went kayaking and I had a great time. My mom and brother were fighting a lot and my mom and dad ahd a 2-person kayak and my mom made my dad paddle the whole way. Yeah. But had fun. On they way I made friends with a cat who wanted to jump into my kayak and some goats. I also met a baby turtle but my brother killed it. I was hanging out with Bruno (the turtle) and Ben came along and knocked the tree branch he was chillen on and Bruno fell and it the next branch on the way down then fell into the water. He killed Bruno. I am so upset. Later down the river I saw the memorial service for him. 3 turtle were having a service for him on a log. RIP Bruno. I got my dad a CD I think he would really like but it isn’t gunna get here for a few days. No fun. last night my awesome dad taught me how to use my new digie camera IT IS SO AWESOME I am so excited. It is so awesome. Anyway I am leaving on Friday so that is like 5 days. Shit that is so soon.

yeah i am loving not being in school

i am leaving in 6 days

i turn 18 in 9 days

i am gunna miss my friends so much but everyone knows i can't stay here anymore. it has been time for me to leave for awile.

i got a new hippie skirt it is my new favorite thing it is flowy and awesome.

i love summer but i hate bug bites

yeah so since i live with crazy people i had to get up at 8:30 today. NO FUN!! but i got to go back to sleep. i am hard core cleaning my room so my rents will buy me stuff before i leave.

today sucked till i went to south street. that was so much fun. i spent 20 mins picking out a shirt only to take it home and find out it doesn't fit. i am soo upset you have to see it to see why i am so upset. Even if it rained we still had a good time.

does anyone know anything about the order the rasta colors go in?

yeah so i had a kick ass day and a weird ass night

yeah for fitting a desk in my car i didn't even think i could do that.

i am in a shitty mood i haven't had that shit i need for awile it think it is having a bad effect.

Mean people suck

i learned how to play real poker with chips instead of lolly pops i think it could be fun if you know the rules. i bet it's like chess i am sure it is way better if you are doing shrooms

9 days left hell yeah i am getting the fuck out of here

yeah i found $20 in my bra and i don't know where it came from